I have had the awareness that a long term illness that I have had was put in my life because I was on the wrong path. I am so grateful for finding my way home. At times I have had a very difficult time coming to terms with this illness, but for this I can truly be grateful. It was hard to lose so much at the time, my health, my husband, my long bike rides every day, my home, my career, my ability to support myself, my independence in some ways, but now with this new awareness I can let it all go finally.
And it's been so much more than that, that I have lost. So many ideas and beliefs about myself, who I am and what I am here to do. I feel so much more at peace, knowing why this has all happened and to truly be grateful for it.
I am so much happier the person I am today. I am so grateful to/for my Earth Mother, to have connected with her the ways that I have, to deeply love and appreciate her and all of our relations which includes every living thing on this planet, including the rocks, yes, they are alive and they like to stay in their rock families- just like we do.
I have given up alot over the past 17 years but what I have gained is so much more. I am much more loving, compassionate, forgiving, kind and gentle and aware that kindness and gentleness are some of the gifts, part of who I am and what I am here to, and share with the world. Honoring that in myself and others has made a huge impact.
I want to live as fully in the present as I can and coming to terms with my life and being grateful for all that has been, and all that I have become will help me to accomplish that. Gratitude is a very potent healing force. Gratitude and forgiveness go hand in hand.
I am sooooo very grateful, thank you!!!!!!!!! I love you.
